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segunda-feira, outubro 20, 2008

Dias....

Decididamente vou deixar de ver televisão, não tem interesse e pura e simplesmente, não se aprende nada com ela. Blocos noticiosos que simplesmente tentam manipular opiniões, não são isentos e objectivos como deveria ser um orgão de informação, e com supostos jornalistas e "opinon makers" falhados, que mais não fazem do que tentar dar nas vistas (e o que mais me assusta é que há quem lhes dê ouvidos). Concursos de segunda categoria, os quais apenas mostram o quão degradante está a nossa cultura e povo (que saudades tenho dos concursos da BBC). Filmes nem vê-los, ou melhor filmes é so revêlos, pois não ha nada de novo que não tenha ja passado nos ultimos 3 meses (ainda ao menos se fossem filmes de jeito....). Salva-se um ou outro debate ou entrevista, mas são tão raros que não vale a pena estar a espera deles. O pior de tudo, para ver 60 minutos de jeito tenho que levar com 120 de reclames e publicidade repetida.

Saio e tento ir ao cinema, mas, que é feito do bom cinema de há uns anos atrás ???

Visto que no cinema tambem não me safo nada mais me resta do que ir até a livraria mais proxima. Gosto de estar nas livrarias, ambiente calmo, onde nos sentimos rodeados de coonhecimento e boas ou más opiniões, mas pelo menos são opiniões. O dificil por aqui é decidir-me por um livro. Encontrei o novo livro de Frederik Forsight, "O Afegão". Uma vista de olhos rapida pelo resumo e voilá!!!, terrorismo, serviços secretos, guerra, espionagem, parece interessante. Feito, 25 € que tenho a certeza serem bem empregues (a julgar pelos outros livros do autor que ja li, tenho a certeza que é uma aposta ganha!!!).

Agora, rumo a casa, musica baixinha e toca de ler....

(Enigma)

sábado, outubro 04, 2008

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
`'Tis some visitor,' I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door -
Only this, and nothing more.'

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
`'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -
This it is, and nothing more,'

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
`Sir,' said I, `or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you' - here I opened wide the door; -
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before
But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, `Lenore!'
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, `Lenore!'
Merely this and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
`Surely,' said I, `surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore -
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; -
'Tis the wind and nothing more!'

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door -
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door -
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
`Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,' I said, `art sure no craven.
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the nightly shore -
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning - little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door -
Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as `Nevermore.'

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only,
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered - not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered `Other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.'
Then the bird said, `Nevermore.'

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
`Doubtless,' said I, `what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore
Of "Never-nevermore."'

But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore -
What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking `Nevermore.'

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o'er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o'er,
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor.
`Wretch,' I cried, `thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he has sent thee
Respite - respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore!
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe, and forget this lost Lenore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

`Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! -
Whether tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted -
On this home by horror haunted - tell me truly, I implore -
Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

`Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore -
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden, whom the angels named Lenore?'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

`Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!' I shrieked upstarting -
`Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken! - quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted - nevermore!


The Raven by Edgar Alan Poe

Estados de Espirito.....

É-me neste momento muito dificil falar de estado de espirito, pois são tantos os estados pelos que neste momento passo durante o dia, que me é completamente impossivil diferenciar ou salientar um deles. A saudade da minha cidade natal, da familia, o arrependimento de certas atitudes que tomei, as saudades de algumas pessoas com que convivia diariamente, o extase de estar novamente em lisboa, a ansia de mostrar "serviço" no "novo" emprego, a ansiedade de arranjar a casa nova, as saudades da pessoa amada, e o desejo de "conquistar" ela novamente, o ambiente "estranho" em que estou inserido, etc, etc, tudo junto, e vivendo e pensando em tudo isto ao mesmo tempo durante o dia e noite. Pela primeira vez sinto-me impotente perante a vida, pois não consigo agora tomar decisões racionais e ponderadas. Deixo acontecer e depois logo se vê....não o devo fazer....mas não o consigo evitar....

Ao mesmo tempo tenho sido atacado por graves crises de insonia, as quais me chateia durante a noite e me "matam" durante o dia....
Têem sido dias "loucos" para mim, e não sei o que fazer....

A impotencia perante as situações da vida e do dia a dia, e a minha incapacidade de raciocinar claramente e devidamente, e tomar decisões objectivas, é bem capaz de ser o pior dos sentimentos pelos quais ja passei....

(Enigma)